I'm craving sweetness. Not in the sense that I want to shovel in three pounds of sugar, but sweetness in the mundane. I regularly tell PRC that while I love excitement, there is sweetness in the mundane. There's something sweet that I relish in moments of sitting at a dining room table drinking tea and blogging/intermittently staring out the window, while my beloved sifts through a gaming suppliment.
The moments of sweetness give me hope that, amidst all the storms I have endured lately, there are times of calm. These moments make me remember that the universe is listening to me, and is giving me balance. Balance also gives me hope. I am reminded lately that like the tides, all things ebb and flow.
I have reflected on my past, and have been reading some old blogs--seeing how a pendulum can swing over the course of just a couple of years is fascinating and comforting from a bird's eye view. The pendulum has been swinging far to one side over the past couple of years, and it's starting to swing back. I can feel the universe shifting around me. I can feel that another change is upon me, and it is one for the good. I suspect I know what it is--I know what I want it to be. I want it so badly in fact, I can taste it.
That strong desire for the pendulum swing frightens me a little--the universe has proven to me time and again, especially lately, that things will indeed work out. I guess I am just hoping that they will work out in a certain way, I fear I will not maintain an open mind if they do not. I need to remember to keep my mind and my heart open.
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